aaj holi rene ka.. bole to happy holi to everyone.. subah as usual utha.. had muh tinkle (ya am reading one tinkle every morning since last so many days) i feel refreshing.. abhi kya karna aisa sochna.. chutti nahi tha re.. mujhe yaad aaya sir bol ke gaye the.. 

niksi : hello, good afternoon sir.

sir : ya, good afternoon.

niksi : ..........

sir : .........

sir : hello

niksi : yes sir

sir : hmm, tell me...

niksi : wat sir... (and der goes muh heart p0unding as always, saala fir darr gaya )

sir : see, today eve i am going to rameshwar.. day after tomorrow is a holiday.. 

niksi : yes sir

sir : so...

niksi : so... 

sir : wat are you going to do..

niksi : (oh my god) mmmmmmmmmmmmmm

sir : .........

niksi : ya.. i will format those papers... but i want you to send me a copy each of the papers and reviews..

sir : why.. i gave you na..

niksi : yes sir, but drive is not working.. and i will have to search for the hard copies.. (baaaah, yaad aa gaya ye time pe.. varna mmmm mmm karke ich khatm sab)

sir : ok den search... tomorrow and saturday you do that thing.. see you on monday..

niksi : happy journey sir..

sir : ok bi..

den same night 3 o clock niksi gets a message (heavenly send.. love you o angel ).. that tomorrow is declared as a holiday for the institute.. he he... ye ye.. our institute is secular (pseudo i mean)... fatafat messaged "tringtring" (who is tringtring... i will introduce someday).. ye ye chutti.....

jitni jor se uchla tha ye football chutti sun ke.. utni hi jor se baith gaya fir.. next day kya boring tha.. was mast enjoying muh loneliness.. and phone aaya..

niksi (again) i hate talking on phone : hello

cousin : hello

niksi : kem cho

cousin : maja ma.. what is happening in hcu yaar.. i am reading all this in paper

niksi : ya.. dats because paapam.. a phd guy did suicide.. so people are fighting for him.. karke.. nothing much

cousin : ok ok

cousin : why you not going office

niksi : nahi hai (ye ye, the spirits where still right there).. aaj holiday... id kar ke..

cousin : ok darling so go to begumpet and pick up your dear aunt.. she will be der in half an hour

niksi : abba right now.. i am still half asleep... tooooooooo much (ofcourse ye sab mann me bola)... ok fine bhaiyya (aaaaaargggggggghhhhhh) i will do it.. tell me the details..

cousin : no details.. take the number, call them and take details..

niksi : (sad now a bit) ok...

cousin gives the number and hangs off...

nahana, khana, details lena kar ke i went off to begumpet station... line me masth khade rehna.. main badi line me khada raha (for the simple reason that kiosk at the end of the line was a beautiful female.. he he.. ).. 

after 20 min my number comes.. ekdum raapchik confidence me bhai bola.. gimme a platform ticket please.. kya smile tha baap... mera i mean.. 

she gave me the ticket... ajanta express kaun se number pe aata (question by niksi to her)

she : kya ajanta express.. yahan pe nahi aata.. secundrabad is the last station.. it never comes here..

ooooooooooooooooooooooo my goooooooooooooooooooooood.. cousin ki to main.... 

anyways.. thank you "behanji"... 

kya chopsi hua baap.. came out.. platform ticket ko cousin bana ke made a thousand pieces.. i am feeling so so so good... again called maasi.. told her to wait at secundrabad station.. her saviour sir nikunj will be der in an hour... (khaya bhi nahi tha kuch main pata hai)...

and the day just started... (yaar, i want boring day.. and roj kuch na kuch hota...)....................

My roots : i am confused. 

Why? 

Is the answer i am still searching for.

Do i really need you?

or is it the search for the unknown.

i want to speak out,

but to someone who could make a difference.

can i see you somewhere?

than why is it that i see you everywhere.

the feeling of being with you is still alive in me.

i'm almost a martyr of love.

i don't see a future that belongs to us together.

but i still dream of one.

people say they come and go.

so did you.

but they never told me that you would go forever.

then why did you?

i belong to where we began because i found you there.

but you ran away from all that was us.

i thought to solve the mystery.

but how can i solve,

because you met me when we began.

you are my roots and roots are not to be shared.

they are to be preserved.

to be taken care of all through the life.

because roots are not to be explored.

because they define you as you did me......

i can feel it.. kya pata..

Crawling in my skinThese wounds they will not healFear is how I fall Confusing what is real There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surfaceComsuming, confusing This lack of self-control I fear is never-endingControlling, I can't seem...To find myself again My walls are closing inI've felt this way beforeSo insecure...Crawling in my skin These wounds they will not healFear is how I fallConfusing what is real Discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me Distructing, reacting Against my will I stand beside my own reflectionIt's haunting, how I can't seem...To find myself againMy walls are closing inI've felt this way beforeSo insecure...Crawling in my skin These wounds they will not healFear is how I fallConfusing what is realThere's something inside me that pulls beneath the surfaceComsuming...This lack of self-control I fear is never-endingControlling...Confusing what is real ....

Am thinking i should post..... ok guys.. see ya again..

Hazaron -- Muh Favorite..

HazaaroN KHwahishaiN ‘eisee ke har KHwahish pe dam nikle

bohot nikle mere armaaN lekin fir bhee kam nikle

nikalna KHuld se aadam ka sunte aayaiN haiN lekin
bohot be_aabru hokar tere kooche se ham nikle

magar likhwaaye koee usko KHat, to hamse likhawaaye
huee subah aur ghar se kaan par rakhkar qalam nikle

mohabbat meiN naheeN hai farq jeene aur marne kaa
usee ko dekh kar jeete haiN jis kaafir pe dam nikle

KHuda ke waaste parda na kaabe se uThaa zaalim
kaheeN ‘eisa na ho yaaN bhee wohee kaafir sanam nikle

kahaaN maiKHaane ka darwaaza ‘GHalib’ aur kahaaN waaiz
par itana jaante haiN kal wo jaata tha ke ham nikle

Starting prep for GMAT

My intention is to do it thoroughly, since time is not a problem. You can give any advice and suggestion. They are always welcome.  This will be specifically useful to me since i am new to preparation. The idea is that finally i would be able to have an example in front of you, so that anyone in the future can pick up and implement the bits of information that i have here. I know, this is quite a challenging task, requiring utmost dedication towards the target and tremendous belief and self confidence. Accordingly, I've decided to work. Looking forward towards muh preparation.

IDEA IS THIS : : 

Two years to first get the devil, Then a month to tame the beast, Then lay it down, Rip out its legs, Then its horns, Smash its skull, Finally when it's totally helpless, Gouge its eyes out and pull out a 750 plus - I'm BLOOD THIRSTY AS HELL..... Just wait and watch.. HERE COMES NIK... thats me.. 

what the hell is it going on in pakistan? what is the fault of poor people? why are they being killed because of this politicians? will this bring peace in pakistan?

virus solution.. but read carefully

W32.USBWorm spreads through USB drives. Prevents user from using Firefox, shows message which reads, "I DNT HATE MOZILLA BUT USE IE OR ELSE..." The message header reads, "USE INTERNET EXPLORER YOU DOPE." Firefox is then closed by force.

Also blocks "Orkut" and "YouTube" sites.

Solutions

Format the usb drive first (your data may loose) which carries the virusUpdate :

No need to frmat the USB Pen Drive, delete the autorun.inf file and any folder whose name ends with .exe in the pen drive.

Press Alt+Ctrl+Del -->
you can see 'Task Manager' -->
click on Process tab -->
Locate 'SVCHOST.EXE' (will see many SVCHOST.EXE, but select the one having 'User Name' same as your Windows login name). -->
Click End Process button

Now proceed the following

Way 1
Open Task Manager by holding Ctrl + Alt + Del and click on the process tab.- Ignore the warning messages and stop the SVC.Host for the system's user name.- Navigate to C:/Heap41a and delete the contents of the folder. Smile.

Way 2

Start Menu>Run>regedit press enter keyGo to HKEY_LOCAL_MACHINE\SOFTWARE\Microsoft\Windows\CurrentVersion\Explorer\Advanced\Folder\Hidden\SHOWALLCheckedValue reset it back to 1 from 2. ( to do that right click CheckedValue>modify>value data >Beware of using USB Pen drive especially in the browsing center. Found some browsing centers in Bangalore too.go to C:\heap41a and delete this folder, If the folder called test.exe delete that too from your desktop.Clear all the key entries from this registryHKEY_LOCAL_MACHINE,SOFTWARE\Microsoft\Windows\CurrentVersion\policies\Explorer\ with entry called heap41aW32.USBWormi dont hate mozillaUpdate : Don't Unintall FireFox, some people are experiencing issues with OS after uninstalling Fire Fox after infecting the virus. Instead of removing the virus, if you uninstall the system will refuse to boot in normal / safe mode

another one from ghalib.. he is great.. i will learn urdu to read him..

"qatl ka mere  kiya  hai 'ahad to baare
waah ! akhar 'ahad ustuwaar naheen hai"

it means that she made a promise to kill.. but at
the end, there is no firmness or determination in
her promise..

nice lyrics.. i like it..

tera yakin kyon maine kiya nahi, tujhse raah kyon juda
mujh pe yeh zindagi karti rahi sitam, tune hi di hai panah
tera mera rishta puraana - 3

hai kya tadap hai, hai yeh kaisi saza
tu kyun mujhe aaj yaad aa gaya
bechain din mere, bechain raat hai
kya main karu kuchh bata
yeh mere paanv hi khud meri bediyaan
uss se tu mujhe chhooda
tera mera rishta purana - 4

kya mujh mein hai shaks woh keh raha
aa aab main du karz tera chuka
aankhen hai nam meri, saasein chubhan meri
zakham huwa pir haara, dil ke viraane mein
mere phasane mein, tu hi toh har dum raha
tera mera rishta purana - 4

oh tera mera rishta purana - 2

how about this one.. "A FRIEND".. ha ha..

(A)ccepts you as you are

(B)elieves in "you"
(C)alls you just to say "HI"
(D)oesn't give up on you
(E)nvisions the whole of you (even the unfinished parts)
(F)orgives your mistakes
(G)ives unconditionally
(H)elps you
(I)nvites you over
(J)ust "be" with you
(K)eeps you close at heart
(L)oves you for who you are
(M)akes a difference in your life
(N)ever Judges
(O)ffer support
(P)icks you up
(Q)uiets your fears
(R)aises your spirits
(S)ays nice things about you
(T)ells you the truth when you need to hear it
(U)nderstands you
(V)alues you
(W)alks beside you
(X)-plains thing you don't understand
(Y)ells when you won't listen and

(Z)aps you back to reality